RPF and a bit more.
The bad or rather sad thing of RPF shipping is that you can only wonder. You start thinking about the possibilities of ppl being “in love” or “in a relationship”. I think that most of us that know to differentiate between reality and fiction know how the things we want real are not and respect the lives of the people we ship.
RPF is it’s own realm, you know it’s not gonna happen but the thought makes you feel the butterflies. Also when you have a lot of material (pictures, videos, interviews, whatever) of them interacting in “shippy” ways, it hits you even harder. The concept of two people being together, of them enjoying the company of each other, or the characters they play being completely out of control.
RPF is a double edged blade, because you can’t help thinking or wishing how you feel to be REAL. That’s the fun part of shipping cartoons, anime or creating your own characters, they don’t exist, so you can make it real for you. The realm of drawings is paradise, you can do and undo the characters however you please and not feel bad “oh but they are married...oh but they actually have a family..oh but they are not that kind of person”...with cartoons you decide what you want. Canon heterosexuality? canon marriage with kids???, let’s ignore and make our own mpregs, This character didn’t do x or y? let me fix that. You can take the material produced “for the masses” and make your fanart to appeal for your taste. Of course, we, the elders in the “”fandoms”” know etiquette. We know not to go bother the original creators to make our ships canon, we know a huge company is nothing even tho we see their attempts at giving fans crumbles of what we desire just for marketing (didni being the biggest hypocrite piece of shit) or even have a work that made a huge impact on us only to find out the creator is ACTUAL shit (harry pot, sam x.) and we have to accept maturely and take notice of this to not support them. I believe that even tho cartoon shipping is good bc there’s no limits to cartoons, we have to be critical of the real people behind it all.
The kids nowadays have been indoctrinated into actually taking ANYTHING they don’t like (the “don’t like” disguised as morality) and screaming and pointing fingers, while ignoring their own faults.
You can see a kiddo leading a harassment campaign towards an adult artist that doesn’t know them and that has clearly put warnings on their art so that people keep away, while the same kid is screaming about breeding x or y character, be it a cartoon or even A REAL SERIAL KILLER. “I don’t support the fictional abuse to this fictional cartoon character, so I will ruin your REAL life.” That’s the “logic” these kids have. Or being into rpf and being utterly disrespectful towards the people they ship as if they were barbie dolls. Some of these real people KNOW that their fans ship them, they even can use that for popularity points or just to make their fans happy, but ofc not all are like that and a lot of people fail to grasp that.
In resume, the kiddos and a lot of young adults have lost the common sense of not mixing reality with fiction. And tons of these people become “popular” and start spreading their “ideologies”....
I find it depressing how things have become, I started into the internetz when tons of shit were just out there for anyone to find, tons of us grew up like that, we know also that fndm wasn’t a peaceful realm (ugly ship wars, people stealing arts, plagiarism, etc) but we knew not to share our private info, not to share explicit details of our real lives. Nowadays kiddos and weird adults trying to fit into the kiddos “agendas” have a carrd with every single detail of their lives in the open for anyone out there.
It’s understandable that we all want to be recognized in some way, especially in these times of being bombarded with so much info each second. But not everyone wishes to have their lives inspected by the morality cops of the internetz. Tons of us just want to be left alone, drawing or writing our fanart and fanfics or creating our stories to ignore how shit our lives are.
Wish we went back to fangirling and making yaoiz of anything with no remorse or fear like the ole days.
I could point out so much shit I remember consuming as a teen new to the internet and feel even sadder of what we’ve become.
I’ve been recently finding joy in shipping music groups, like when I was 14. Even when I was that age I knew that everything must be an act but it sure feels good to see and IMAGINE. We all end up going back to our essence haha, u ship band members, you ship yaois, you go “NOT ANYMORE” and years later, you go back, brain go brrrrrrr. The only good thing (even tho it’s painful with the rp), is that now I can make proper fanart of my recent obsessions, even tho it makes me utterly sad because the older i get, the more i think and the more i feel how life goes by so fast….that one is another sad thing of rpf….the passing of time, cruel and VERY real. You get to see the people live and pass….the cartoons can be revived the amount of times necessary.
(I draw the funky shapes....)
Real people we enjoy (in this case artists, musicians, actors) are only in the lives of their close ones, we only get to see their ‘personas’ even tho there are others that are very public about their lives. But ofc, we get limited info on them, We get few pictures of their early life, few info of their feelings and thoughts...I mean, it’s okay, but our own humanity makes us want to know this info to connect…
Don’t put these thoughts of mine alongside the parasocial (??? is that the term??) relationship some fans create with artists of every branch, the “I feel betrayed, I thought we had something special!” kind of people (and the artists don’t even know them…)
We can feel betrayed ofc when we get to know some shit about some artists (like real shit things, not the “ayyy this artist is drawing shotaloli, ayyy this artist ships incence” kinda bullshit, but real damaging shit they do to REAL people) but yeah, getting to the point,
is so sad that we see these people and want to know more and we only get a small peek of them….and it’s okay but we start feeling and imagining…”how would I be if I had been born just a few years before...I wish I was older so I could enjoy this at that moment in time…” ...can’t help but feel sadness, can’t help but feel things that maybe a lot might find dumb...or useless feelings…
We all have thought of “boy i wish i was born on x years” (like, “boi i wish i was a teen in the 60’s to have enjoyed the beatles”) it’s very different to go back MANY many years in the past than just want to go 5 years in the past….which is what I have been feeling lately..haha, “wish i could have walked the earth a bit earlier so I could have been old enough to enjoy this properly”....maybe it’s just me and my sad wasted life...that couldn’t discover the stuff at the right time and lost time….I’ve been feeling pretty depressed lately...death is more present than ever thanks to cockbig and it’s like every mistake and waste of time is coming to slap my face….
All I can do at the time is think that we are lucky to share and walk the earth with a few peers we enjoy at the same time.... and wonder “i was living this when them were living that”.... :’)
Thank you for reading, I got more sad at the end of this post...but I hope somebody out there reading feels me…
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