(MESSY) LOVE LETTER TO GAIKAKA

 (MESSY) LOVE LETTER TO GAIKAKA

I’m gonna talk about gkk but I’m gonna put some context about the time and circumstances that led me to ship them. It’s a long story, so grab something to eat to read this mess or just don’t read….what can be so interesting about an stranger’s thoughts/life?<

From all the ships I have, I think this one is the one I can talk easily enough and make sense. I started shipping them back on 2009, but I have to say that I started shipping kakairu, the second most popular ship after sasunaru. Those two ships were all I consumed at the time, I was into ZabuHaku but not as much, I REALLY was into GaiLee. I have always been atracted to the teacher-student trope, either because it is strangely relatable (I’ve had many crushes with teachers in my life...and at the time I had a crush on one...but that’s another story) or just because I like the idea...I remember when I was like 9 watching CCS I loved to see the Rika and the teacher having ‘something’ going on, my young mind didn’t see it as something wrong (as most kids nowadays might scream about and even would try to cancel it like with the new inuyasha series) but as something interesting, relatable even! Who doesn’t daydream or daydreamed about getting together with their crush? (even when said crush was a teacher or a power figure) I believe it’s something that everyone has lived at least once...or how lucky if there are people who have not felt a crush ever! 

Now, back to the topic, I was a big GaiLee shipper at the time, shipped them more than GaaLee. Those 3 ships were big for me on those days, even tho I consumed ssnr and kkiru more (since most of the content had both as protagonist ships.)

some of my old gailee draws..

But then IDK what was it, that after the famous piggyback scene in shippuden, I was converted...It had such a big impact that it dissolved any feelings I had for the other two pairings. I think it’s amazing how powerful something can be to make you change your feelings on something…(Guess this experience has repeated itself with ginzura and ginmada, I was a big ginzura until I rewatched gintama, and it was a big realization for me to see these other two characters interacting…) 

After that, I started making my own fanart, I admit I didn’t make much, and ofc I didn’t have an active ‘following’ as I might have now (I started uploading all my stuff to deviantart...i don’t even remember how I ended up there, but it sure was on 07) to feel like sharing. Gkk was an extremely rare pair, as I remember, because compared to now, now it’s easier to find drawings of them together. I think the pairing started getting ‘popular’ on 2014, I guess it might be due to gkk being more ‘obvious’ on shippuden, there is a lot of material of them in the anime, compared to the ‘naruto chikito’ series, EVEN THOUGH GKK HAS ALWAYS BEEN THERE!

I still feel amazed by how this pairing didn’t come out of nowhere (like the canon ending naruhina and sasusaku), they had their friendship/rivalry all the time since the beginning, and their interactions seem pretty natural between them, compared to the other teams sensei’s (Asuma, Kurenai), and their relationship is explored in more depth in the later series, and for that i’m so thankful tbh. 

I feel confident when I say that I don’t mind not having more depth on certain character’s backstories, or on ships not having such a long history, but with gkk I have EVERYTHING I like to explore (with my imagination when there’s lack of content of a ship, or just for the fun of making headcanons and such).

I have to point out (even tho I might sound presumptuous or something but I’m talking out of personal experience) that on the days of old I never saw the amount of shit you see today regarding what or what not to ship, explore, draw, etc, I sure saw some ship wars regarding dynamics (who tops and who bottoms in a ship and why they are better and such) or people talking shit about drawing shotas or lolis or incest, and all the ‘problematic’ stuff and pointing fingers at others to have them ‘canceled’ or better said, destroy their lives. And sadly, with the years, gkk has become one of those fluffy uwu ships antis are attracted to.

In ‘14, when gkk was becoming a thing, I was happy to draw and share! I drew TONS by that time, I was more confident about my art skills, and was happy overall. 

There was still some peace in my brain, callouts were rare to see, or at least i had the luck to not see anything on my ‘dashboard’, yeah, tungle times. I was a tungle user since ‘11 until I left it on ‘17.

What I’m trying to say here is, that I loved gkk a lot, but then seeing how it became from nothing to a semi popu ship, i just didn’t want to interact with the shippers anymore….from all the years on the net, i started alone, it was new, followers didn’t matter, numbers didn’t matter...i was happy to throw my stuff on the dA void, many deviations with zero likes, comments or views...i was just happy i could put my stuff online. Now seeing how something you loved alone, evolves into something big...you feel it’s cool but then you feel the void again, in my case I couldn’t connect enough to form a friendship with a gkk shipper...I felt admiration by many, and I still follow an amazing artist that used to draw the best gkk content back then, and I enjoy seeing their art whenever they draw again...also I enjoy following them checking how they doing even tho we exchanged few words in all these years...idk, it’s like a comfort to know some artists are doing well after all these years bc artists aren’t machines that produce the thing u wanna see whenever u wanna see it, they are humans with lives, I am a person with a life as well….and well, apart from that case, I don’t remember another people who were into this ship on those years…. never connected, and this happens to me in every single fandom I have ‘visited’ bc I’ve never been part of anything, never felt part of anything. I have counted people from certain ‘fandoms’ that luckily I can call my friends. So you start alone, get a taste of having people who like the same thing you like interact with you and then, when time passes there is no more and you get to know how people are and end up alone again. I don’t mind being alone in my ship, I just want to enjoy stuff and draw...even if there are many others enjoying the same and hungry for content as I am...I rather not on these times...I rather talk to my friends….or talk to myself like I am doing rn.

This is regarding my feelings towards being part of a community of people liking the same. I rather not be part. Maybe before it was something enjoyable, and it might be enjoyable still for some, but for me those days ended.

I wake up, I google gkk,or put gkk moments on yt and I’m happy, I feel happy to have something that brings me so much joy! Even tho I have nobody close to me that is into this ship the same way I am, I’m genuinely happy. I would throw captures on mi private tuire and talk to myself about how much I love x or y thing of the ship and it’s alright.

I wanted to write my gkk feels bc I think talking about something you love so much and your experience with it might be relaxing and distracting….free serotonin...even tho all the context I put in the beginning may sound depressing...elmao, it helps me order my thoughts...in a way.

Now talking about the pairing!!
I’m gonna be a bit redundant in this one, like in the eruri feels entry, I adore their contrast. It’s an obvious contrast between both characters since the beginning, a cringy sensei vs the cool sensei! Their personalities are contrasting, their looks are contrasting, their abilities are contrasting! I might hate kishimoto for his bullshit writing and his ways but he created a lot of good characters….BUT I DON’T WANT TO POINT OUT WHAT I HATE, I want to concentrate on what I love rn.

So you have this two characters who create a nice contrast, the are “rivals” but also friends! At first it might appear they are colleagues, but while the series advance, you get to know that there’s more to this ‘comedic relief’ their rivalry makes for us as an audience. I found charming how kakashi, even if gai’s shenanigans ‘bother’ him some times, he still goes for the challenges gai comes up with.

One of the things that I started observing when I first started shipping them was my way of pairing characters, at first, (me at 14 years old) “these characters look hot together, why not? jeje” to “hey, these characters have good chemistry together! let me see what else there is to this” tbh, I mixed my ways of shipping, I always go for the obvious chemistry between characters, if not, i wouldn’t ever have shipped house/wilson or rdjude (this one IS A BIG STORY AS WELL, but for another blog entry), but my early fujo years were also full of hurr hurr they are dudes and look sekushi together, make them kiss. But as I grow older, I put more thought into the stuff I consume...Gaikaka wasn’t a first option bc i went for the obvious, gai and lee have an obvious bond! and everyone else was ofc drawing sexy kakairu pornies alongside the sasunarus, kakairu was sexy, two bishies. But then I noticed that kakairu interactions were….not many tbh, and the few didn’t feel shippy enough….and this is why I still feel funny how gkk is/was a less popular ship...I might be wrong ofc, because I’m talking from the westerner (?) side of fandom, well, from the latin side tbh, but most of the doujinshi I found was about the mentioned pairings, until “recently” like in 2015, when I discovered that “Basso” (Ono Natsume, author of ACCA: 13, Saraiya Goyou) used to draw gkk doujinshi back on 2004!! A 2004 GKK FAN! Galaxy brain author on my books, I used to read many of her boy’s love work found on (now dead) manga sites when I was consuming the whole yaoi/shonen ai tags. I was so amazed that many years after, 2019, I found her doujinshi on mndrk. I was flying! I could finally get my hands on antique gkk material that Is2g I don’t think has ever been scanlated or translated. So I believe that on the beginning of the whole nardo, there must have been a considerable amount of gkk shippers (I can compare this to eruri, because the ship even tho today it has thousands of works, ereri still has more uploaded doujinshis on the tag) but not popular enough to have people from this side of the world find it and like it enough to scanlate and translate. I think one of the biggest facts that helped this ship to be so small or unpopular back in the day is the fact that gai isn’t a bishie. He’s cringe, he can be bothersome and is the comedic relief, how do you compete with Iruka, a complete uke coded character, with a character like that? Kakashi is the epitome of cool character, mysterious, powerful, WHITE HAIR, sexy voice and to pair him with a noisy, ridiculous, spandex wearing, emotional Gai-sensei….WHY??? Idk, I understand the appeal of kakairu and ships that are loved just because the charas are sexy together, but there’s something about characters that share chemistry,even if they aren’t together on screen much time, that has my heart fluttering each time I think of them. I think is difficult to explain why we love stuff apart from pointing facts, like “it’s obvious you like this because this and this”, but why! why them specifically? it’s like “why do you like to draw?” You could answer with “ah yeah, my family has artists on it and i picked it from them” or “I felt inspiration strike when I saw this thing and I couldn’t stop ever since!” but many people have felt inspiration strike them when seeing something and they never went to draw and keep drawing, or many might have artists on their family and never get that interest, it’s so mysterious...I always wonder about that, why did I have to draw and not write? why am I attracted to this ship and not that one?

But back to gkk, I’m glad I got attracted to this pairing, I have been well fed by the anime and also various talented artists I have found.


Regarding the story of the characters and their relationship, at first glance, “naruto chikito” (I’m gonna name it like it when I’m not talking abt shipuden, shipuden is “naruto grande”) shows us that yeah, gai is noisy and silly and kakashi is always done with it in a way, but they are interacting! they show a dynamic between them! There are various parts in which gai is shown as the butt of jokes, but also a lot of these include kakashi. I’m happy gai as a character exists, I can’t imagine a character like Asuma having gai’s personality, he has such an iconic design, in my opinion, that you just can’t imagine another character like that in the series. Then there’s serious episodes in which gai and kakashi have to work together, or even times when gai saved kakashi’s ass! (kisame and itachi vs kakashi) and you see how powerful gai can be. I’m never gonna get tired of saying how cool gai is, he’s powerful, he doesn’t need complicated techniques to fuck u up, even tho he uses some, but you have ‘fuerza de verga pura y dura’ vs let’s say…”magic” lol, or ninjutsu genjutsu, stuff that can only happen in the nardo universe.


Now if I want to talk about their abilities, kakashi is a genius, gai is nothing. Kakashi is born from another genius, a type of hero (that later falls in disgrace for deciding to not follow orders to save his comrades and later decides to kill himself in his home, leaving small kakashi alone),and gai comes from a father who is a joke for the whole village, someone weak that ends up like a hero by using his life to protect his son and his friends from some powerful and famous assassins).On a side note, I gotta say that back on ‘14, when I got to read the chapter of gkk meeting, I lost my shit at seeing the parents, I also started shipping them bc I have always been a sucker for the prompt of ‘single parents meet and then their kids also fall in love. I remember making some ocs along these lines in 2010. Idk if my shipping the dads was because they were the same image as their sons (but older) or something else, but I loved the contrast between them as well.

Kakashi’s dad was super chill looking and Gai’s dad was the same as him but sillier (and hairier). Then I started imagining a lot of scenarios for the ship to work...Idk, then when I saw that I was getting to the bottom of my own delusion I stopped, but still, I can’t tell enough how much I love Sakumo and Dai, not necessarily in a shippy way.

(2014, año de mundial, GANÓ ALEMANIA!! WOOOOOO It was such a good year now that I think of it….I drew nardo futbol AU and the gkk dads were something big for me, I like how thos drawings came out….shitty pen and colored pencils.. Also I was transitioning from full traditional to digital, so I did a lot of the linearts on paper and colored them digitally…. 2014, a year of many changes….)

Well, now you have kid Kakashi, who is a little shit, he’s 5, he’s a genius and he’s done with everyone’s bullshit. And Gai who is a little (¬ n ¬) “why bother”, “I’m a loser”, super different from the energetic passionate adult he became....I love Gai’s character development, from being somewhat negative and :T to be FIRE AND PASSION (and cringe <3). He started as nothing, no outstanding abilities, no important family, being look down….then after noticing Kakashi and how he could do everything easily, he chose to make him his goal, his direct rival. I love that Gai worked so hard and put his “rules” (to his father’s advice) and he succeeded them in order to finally challenge kk. There are a few incongruencies, I believe, since in Gai’s arc with his dad, it says he challenged kk after 5000 laps, but on a kk backstory with obito and rin, from the days he spend alone in his family house, it shows that Gai challenged him on a (let’s say) daily basis…..IDK and IDC, I love the idea of little gai challenging little grumpy kk everyday but I also love that he formally went to challenge him (he was a bit older I guess) after he surpassed his self imposed rule...it’s funny, it’s like when you are procrastinating something “I will eat a snack before cleaning up..oh now I have to go buy a drink, mmm now I have to pick something to see to eat..” and the main thing gets pushed and pushed back until there’s no escape from it after putting it off for so long. So Gai is like that, in a way with his challenging kk, he looks as if wanting to confess to his crush, DON’T AT ME. Maybe it’s not that deep, but I like this comparison...it’s very personal but yeah. Now he has always been ‘one sided’ in being kakashi’s rival, he labels himself as his rival, but kakashi is like..”yeah whatever, leave me alone”. I love that even tho we see that kakashi has this ‘i don’t care about you’ attitude towards gai, we also get small peeks in the anime that he NOTICES gai, even if it’s to think ‘what-why (= . =)?’ or point out his weakness, kakashi even helps him in a fight when some dudes were talking shit of Dai...and even encourages Gai to stand for himself and his father. Kakashi might look like he doesn’t give two shits under his cool facade but deep down he’s good (this is when he is still a kid), with time, as they grow up, and after Gai’s “confession” (his first official challenge idk) Gai becomes fixated on challenging kk at all times, this is made for comic relief but yeah, some of these tell a lot about their characters. I’m very fond of seeing these characters grow up and face a lot of shit… SO in this episode, if I remember well, gai is in charge of guarding nardo (filler episodes i guess) and gai starts telling him about his rivalry with kk, at the same time, i believe kk is handling important matters with tsunade, and she tells him to get a person he trusts with his life, and ofc, he says, “I have already someone in mind” and OFC it’s gai. He gets an SOS turtle message from gai and he GOES TO HIM. But while he gets there, we see the side A story of the chapter, which is gkk and how they got to be rivals. It’s very heartwarming and fun, because the silliness of the chapter then becomes ‘serious’ when we see gkk actually fighting and kkshi being ‘amazed’ ? by gai’s strength, still, kk has many tricks under his sleeve (since i said before, kk has the nardo magic jutsus to help himself, while gai is pure physical strength) and ends up winning the fight, which he ends up saying stuff like ‘give up already’ to a worn out gai on the floor...still, gai has the strength to grab kk’s leg and, with tears on his face, still ask for a rematch. I dare say this is the point in which kk makes click with the idea of “whatever, let him have what he wants…” and the flashback ends up with gkk jankenpon on a cliff with the sunset behind them...afterwards, we see story b, when kk goes to see gai and asks him what’s wrong, why the sos, but since at the beginning of the episode we get told that there are ninjas out there than can even copy chakra signatures and yadda yadda, gai is suspicious and starts fighting him....to which kk ends up telling a ‘secret only the two of them now’ to others in the mission alongside gai….

i love this episode because we see how much gkk know and trust each other.

I want to go full on the details but this might become even longer than it is now, and it’d be better if i put captures for better understanding.

I love this episode so much…...the exchange between them is gold!

Another important part in their development while they grow up is kk and his life full of tragedy….he lost his father, changing him to be cold and calculating, to be a follower of rules, don’t let your feelings interfere with the mission/work...he’s independent, tries to show as little emotion as possible, i know, your typical cool character, then he loses his team mate on a mission (obito) and years later he has to kill his remaining team mate, rin. Kk’s life is full of loses and sadness, he becomes even colder, gets into the anbu thing and starts ignoring gai….”he’s back to ignoring me”...


Gai forms a big part on kks character development, since gai wants to follow kk to anbu, but he’s told that he isn’t made for it (and ofc he isn’t since gai can’t be a coldblood killer, he cares too much, it’s not because he isn’t capable with his abilities) and then minato(nardo’s dad and kkshi’s sensei) has the big announcement that he’s gonna have a kid...and IDK if it’s canon or if i’m mixing my thoughts and memories with fanfiction, but he get’s assigned to guard pregnant kushina...this with the objective to start getting kk out of the hole he was in, i believe gai had a part on that as well. Now, after this, he starts hanging out with gai again, and then the kyuubi attack happens. I still have my thoughts on the whole obito revenge shit. I hate obito..elmao, don’t at me. As a kid he was bothersome, but I understand it, and then when his character was starting to ‘grow’ he ‘dies’, giving kk his sharingan as a gift. that was cool and sad ngl, but then shit writing happens and he is brought to life and yadda yadda. I hate the bullshit way nardo went storywise...but whatever. I don’t wanna pick a fight with the people who love the series story and this character in particular…

Continuing with gkk, after the fox attack happens, I believe kk is anbu no more and he is assigned a mission to go see wtf is going on in the uchiha’s village, what i love is that he asks gai to accompany him :3.

We see that Gai is a constant on Kk’s life, and even if kk is always in the edge of shit in his life and tries to get everyone else out of his life, Gai never gave up on him. If it was another character, maybe they would have given up on kk and let him be, but gai always cared...we see that even though they might have some clashes when they were what? 12? and had a mission alongside Rin, they put their differences apart and could work together...this was before kk joined the anbu ofc.

This character development MY HEART FLIES!!!!!!!!

(I’m making a whole mess writing all this, i know...it’s gonna be specially confusing if you aren’t familiar with nardo or gkk, i’m sorry if you made it this far reading) 

So, in a small resume of the events I have talked about:

-When they were 5, and about to enter academy, gkk and their dads met. Even Sakumo pointed out to kk to keep an eye on gai, since he would become a good rival one day.

-Kk helped gai one time he was getting bullied about his dad by some dudes.

-Dai cheered Gai and taught him to put his own rules when training of wanting to achieve a goal. His next goal was to go challenge kkshi.

-Kk is bothered by gai so much that he ends up accepting his challenge.

-They have a match, kk wins, gai begs him for another challenge, kkshi accepts and they start with the janken.

-Kk becomes jounin at young age, that day they go on a mission, kk is the leader of it and practically is thanks to him that it fails, ends up on rin being kidnapped by enemies and obito “dying”. He gets the sharingan.

- After this, they are still on friendly terms, even tho kk sulks, makes me think it’s like it since they went on that mission with Rin and get along, even if they get in an argument in that mission, the day ends well.

-Kk kills Rin, he then enters ANBU.(?)

-Kk is distant and cold towards everyone. “He’s back to ignoring me” (sorry but that moment is just uff for me, the phrase is stuck in my head)

- Gai wants to follow kk to anbu but he’s told he isn’t fit for it. Minato and Kushina are preggers, at this point Minato is hokage and makes kk go on the special mission of guarding his wife and unborn nardo.

-The kyuubi attack, minato and kushina’s death. Gai and kk were together when the attack happened

-Kk is no longer in anbu, and gai and him get missions, they go to the uchiha’s village.

-Itachi kills everyone, at this time sasu was what, 5? 6? idk.

-kk is assigned to be a teacher alongside gai. it’s said that kk always failed all the teams he got assigned.

-gkk get their respective teams assigned and naruto chikito starts.

WELL. That’s it for their first part…

NOW, we have naruto chikito happen and a loooot of shit in naruto grande going on.

What I love a lot is that in all this, we see gkk team up in a lot of the series dramas. I already talked about how gai has saved kk’s ass, how they have their silly challenges alive and well, the drama of their respective teams, etc.

I think the more gkk development happened in nardo grande. It starts with team kk and team gai having a mission together (sasu is fuggin orochi at this moment blablabla), they go to the gaara kidnapping thing, and in the end of it all, we have the teams going back to their village, and the piggyback scene happens. BLESSED MOMENT.

Nardo grande for me is like static, I liked it at first but then I got bored...idk why I couldn’t feel attached...ofc with the years I was keeping an eye of what was happening, got to see the gkk race episode, the gkk childhood, the gkk fighting together...gai almost dying and kk thinking how powerful he is (we see gai’s childhood told by kk) and then we see the nardo end, shit end elmao, but we see gkk is alive and well! And then small stories happened after it, we see the gkk vacation with asuma and kurenai’s kid, another spinoff book which i happened to read some fragments, but it sure has gkk moments. I love how after all these years, gkk is a constant. Idc if it’s just them being friends.

The we have some filler episodes, always on nardo, since the manga finished but it wasn’t all animated, and some few years later, we see this filler episode in which we finally see kk’s face...i think is amazing bc in all of it, we could just have seen the whole episode WITHOUT the excellent gkk interaction there. Was it necessary to have Gai almost recognize kk’s disguise when he passed by? Gai wasn’t in town in that episode (it was placed on naruto chikito’s timeline) and apparently, team gai helped kk in his shenanigan. Since team asuma , kk and kurenai were all trying to get him….and the others intervened in the ultimate plan to unmask him...I want to think that team gai is used to kk’s presence and shenanigans, since their sensei’s are always having their ‘childish’ challenges, i suppose they are the ones who get to see both parties true bond. 

BUT BACK TO THE SUKEA DISGUISE, was it necesary REALLY? Is2g the staff has shippers lurking hehe (same with the eruri, is2g there’s shippers in the official staff).

Gai passes sukea, then he comes back and goes all o_ó kkshi?....and then sweaty kksh asdjshjjd and then he goes away...and THEN COMES BACK, he still wonders if they know each other...ajshdaj it makes me smile like a complete fool everytime.

I feel that I have been redundant in many things in this whole text and that I’m missing a lot still...Well, I’m gonna talk about the gkk vacation in bort.

I think it’s super sweet to see them ‘relaxed’, even tho the whole vacation thing was an undercover mission, we get to see that after the whole nardo shit happened, they kept their friendship strong. We see them having fun, eating together (Mirai is watching over them in a secret spot, watching them eat, and then she points out how kk let gai grab of his food, and kk just says, ‘ahh I always let him, gai loves this thing’ or something like that, SORRY I HAVE BEEN SO INACCURATE IN MY WHOLE WRITING JFC, but this shows that they know so many little everyday details of each other...my kokoro dokidoki), they sleep in the same room, kk indulges gai when he wants to play pingpong, he carries gai in his chair...so many ‘’old married couple’’ details (DONT CALL THEM HUSBANDS PLEASE I BEG U, DO NOT MENTION THIS TO ME, well, you might, it’s just my personal choice to not call my ships husbands, lovers, etc…it’s complicated...I don’t mind if you call your ships like it, it’s just...ahh….personal preferences...) that I adore so much. I think a big ass drawing might help better understand all that i’m trying to explain...but I already did last year. 

Even after gai losing his leg and kk becoming hokage, they kept each other company...i’m sure enough since we see kk ‘confessing’ how he wants him by his side (the race was gai’s way of saying goodbye to their challenge/rival days, since kk was becoming hokage atm, before tsunade woke up) and then also we have that book i haven’t been able to read well, in which kk is observing gai recover and struggling to keep his possitive ways...OR MAYBE I READ THIS IN A FIC. IDK. Well, all I can say is that there is enough ‘proof’ that these characters share a strong bond and they spend a whole life together, with all their ups and downs.

Now after writing pages of facts, let’s talk about my vision of the ship. 

The way I see them is Gai being oblivious and Kakashi being horny for him. I dig the fact that Gai is all physical strength, muscle, energy, spiced with some flamboyant traits and emotion that moves him to tears, being super oblivious about shit. To back my claim, let’s point out the fact that he beat the shit out of kisame when he saved kakashi on the naruto chikito series and then didn’t remember who he was on naruto grande. We can see this when he encounters Kakashi/Sukea and doesn’t recognize him even tho he might...idk. Gai can be pretty clueless sometimes. Then we have Kakashi, chill, lazy (?), who has this dark past and can be deadly with all his abilities, he’s sharp, a genius, READS PORN whenever he can, IS FLUSTERED WHEN HE READS “aishiteru”....we can say he’s a bit “pícaro”, a rascal(?) deep down, and he was pretty sincere when he told gai he wanted him by his side! (also, gai is very heartwarming in the vacation thingie, he says he’s happy to be by his side etc etc) BUT KK ‘CONFESSED’ first.

“do i know u from somewhere?”

“a-aishiteru”

SO, I like thinking that kk has all this feelings, has the horny feelings, has this piece of nice ass always with him, he’s ofc gonna notice him in the sexy way….and ofc gai can be a bit innocent….it’s the perfect mix...this dynamic might be read as kakagai, or top kakashi bottom gai, but i like gaikaka better because I want kakashi, this cool figure, be drooling over his ripped friend askdjh I love thirsty ukes, idk

I think is a pretty interesting vision to have Gai top and Kakashi bottom….wanting to be manhandled, also he ain’t got no energy, he’s lazy, ofc he’s gonna have Gai make all the work, he can leave himself in Gai’s hands. Also a thing that I noticed is how they make kakashi look thru the series, sometimes he might tell something to nardo and nardo reacts like STOP WTF.

Example, on shipuuden, nardo is practising and kk is like “you did it! each day i like u more” (dont remember this exchange on english , but in spanish it was something like “cada día que pasa te quiero mucho más” and kkshi is like (^ ^) ) So if kk throws stuff like that to nardo, why can’t he be like that with gai? I like to imagine all the indirects he might throw ^^ and gai not seeing anything weird asdja. With Sukea, I like to imagine NTR situations, Sukea “tirandole los calzones” in a not subtle way and Gai getting flustered, also Sukea telling him stuff like what do you think of kkshi? don’t you like him? what would happen if x happened? and then Gai gets even more flustered, and Sukea ofc is all over him, no personal space, being a complete slut. ‘Would u like to do this with kkshi?’’why don’t we practise so u can do this with him?’ ajshaad so many possibilities….but then somehow Gai forgets and he is like nothing happened, he doesn’t change around kk. And kk gets mad bc he wants Gai to ravish him sometimes….

Well that’s my humble view on this ship. I also have come to like other views of the ship, I have even encountered kakagai that I enjoy a lot! (bottom gai) it just depends on how the dynamic is handled….I would rather not go into the uwu and they lived married happily ever after path, the established relationship….I know these characters have their well established personalities and I like to ‘enhance’ them to their maximum nastiness (kakashi) and maximum obliviousness(gai), so I wouldn’t mind on having top kakashi thirsting over an innocent gai. Or gai denying kakashi’s feelings (as in yeah i love u too my rival! we are friends after all! :D and kakashi being all sexitension about him and frustrated) this dynamic for me is okay, they can reverse ONCE. but I prefer top gai overall.

Kakashi picarón jejejeje.

What else? Ah yes, as kids, since kakashi wasn’t the chill person he is now, I like to imagine him in a grumpy (tsundere????) way, like yeah, gai is all over him wanting to be his rival and be excepcional like kakashi, but he doesn’t see him in a romo way, but kakashi, being the ‘precocious’ kid, always reading and being independent, he might start feeling something, like having a crush without knowing, “he makes me angry, he’s so ridiculous” and blushing without knowing...that he is starting to have a crush on gai...and so on….he starts growing up and recognizing what it is that he is feeling...like an awakening in him, and blablabla, sexitimes….

"What's is this feeling....?"

I think I haven’t explored all there is that I like about this ship with art.I have drawn a lot but not enough. I guess that I should start drawing more of this :)  

I think I have covered most of the things I wanted to talk about this ship….ofc after I post this I’m gonna feel like I missed a lot of stuff, but I could maybe write or better, draw the rest :)

Thank you if you made it this far into the rabbit hole of my gkk feels.

Have some GaiKaka GALS AS WELL!

Big jugs x small jugs 4lyfe.

BONUS: I’m a sucker for exploring my yaois as yuris as well...if I ship it, I probably have made genderswap, animal crossing versions, furry versions, shotaloli versions, infamous mpreg (bc I love imagining how their mix would look) etc etc. And gaikaka isn’t an exception :3 I made kakashi look like himself but with small boobs and gai ofc a godess with big jugs, that’s how life is. And ofc, oblivious gai toward kakashi’s horny advances. :D

look where you’re touching kakashi

MILF vacation

Well. Again, sorry this whole thing is a mess to read, I’m not good at just writing my feels out...I’m more a draw what u feel person, I might use this whole thing to maybe in a far future, rewrite something coherent and make an actual timeline of gkk…..meanwhile, I pulled this out of my ass because I was feeling down about shit happening in my life….anyways. hope you had a laugh reading this ; 7 ;

ERURI rambling

The past week I have been thinking about eruri 24/7.

I still feel amazed by the strenght of this ship in my life, since I have had many ships on my 13 years of being an active fujoshi on the web, and there is a few that have captured me in this way.

In general, I have a lot of strong feelings for OTPs that become dormant whenever a new obsession comes up, but when I revisit my old ships, the feelings are still there.

The point with eruri is that even though I don’t care much about the whole snk series (plotwise), this pairing still shakes me to my core….I still don’t know why or how I got this in love with a ship.

I’m not good writing analysis of the stuff I like, I’m a mess at writing, I’m better drawing….I feel more than I think...I’m a dumb bitch I know…

Recently I found a tungle meta on the ship and I was moved to tears (it was pretty complete and well written) and felt even dumber because I doubt I will write something like that (scholarly level writing, like a thesis or something!) BUT I can sure make lists of points I like...or make lists of headcanons or stuff that has happened with the ship (or at least the stuff I know about) So if you’re reading this, sorry if I got stuff wrong, as I said, I don’t consume snk since years ago, and all I know is from ggle searches and random screencaps. I may be lacking a lot of context and content.

A short list of Eruri events I want to cover, be it with words or drawings in the future:

-The meeting

-Choice with no regrets (Part I)

-From enemies to equals

-The ackerbond

-Trust

-Levi

-Erwin

-Death (Choice with no regrets Part 2)

-The promise.

-Future + a very personal wish.

But some hard facts that I love about this ship:

Their excellent contrast, physical and personality wise. Tall, blonde, blue eyed and small, dark haired and dark eyes. Erwin being a gentleman and charismatic and Levi being bad mouthed and grumpy. What’s not to love? 

The ackerbond. It’s canon, what can I say to that??? it’s right there. I don’t care that they don’t kiss, that they don’t show romance, their bond of trust plus the ackerman magic is enough for me. This ackerbond stuff can be read as soulmates but I prefer to compare it to A/B/O. yeah, don’t @ me. ABO minus the whole stuff, but more in the similarities of ‘finding a mate you give your best and would do anything for them’. You get bonded to a single person, and you act like they were your master, your king, and the ackerman is like a loyal servant/guardian dog/knight to their special someone. I feel like I’m talking and thinking with my ass when I try to explain the ackerbond with my own words and feelings, because there are pretty neat analysis out there that are a better read than this elmao. 

How do I explain this love I have for this in a few words without sounding stupid?...mmmm

I love how Erwin is Levi’s everything, Erwin gives him orders, he fulfills them without fail. They are equals, they trust each other. A man and his right hand. Spice this relationship with a mysterious element; ackerbond, that makes the ackerman show a kind of potential they didn’t know they had, this potencial reaches the maximum when they find a person to motivate them, to spark in them the will to serve their every whim….ahhhhhhhh I just love this…. I can keep being redundant without saying anything clear about what this thing is…

I love the tragedy of Eruri, the conditions of their meeting, Levi’s loses and pain, Erwin still being a mystery to Levi, Erwin’s role in most part of the series as a savior figure and Levi wanting to protect the ideal he represented…until everything ends going even more to shit when Erwin loses his arm, ending in the ultimate tragedy that is Erwin’s death by the (indirect) choice of Levi. I love that we can speculate if Levi wants to revive him for personal reasons or for ‘humanity’s sake’. He ends up choosing his death, “let him rest”. Die before you get (more) corrupted by your dream….Levi liberates Erwin...but at what cost?

I love how their last exchange is “Forget your dream and go to your death, I promise to kill the beast titan” Erwin thanks him. Levi fails to fulfill the last promise he made to Erwin. Imagine that Erwin died, he fulfilled his part, but Levi couldn’t, like his death was in vain. The power of this promise makes my stomach flutter because 4 years passed since then and they got to know the secrets of the basement (which Erwin was so obsessed with that it didn’t matter if he died if he could get closer to it, to his and his father dream) and Levi is still thinking of his promise, 4 years thinking how he failed, “humanity’s stronger’’, I like to imagine what could have been of Levi if he fulfilled Erwin’s promise back then, would he still be fighting for humanity when his motivator is dead? what would be the point? A part of the analysis I read said that Levi was on the corps because Erwin wanted him there, and indeed, he was there for Erwin, before that he didn’t give two shits about ideals, he was all about surviving in a shit world...I haven’t read the manga parts where they find the other side of the island they are in and all that, but I love that Levi is full of hatred towards Zeke, he couldn’t kill him, he is the reminder of how he failed Erwin. The part where he almost dies trying to kill Zeke must have hurt like a motherfucker for Levi...feels like “you had one job”, and from some screenshots it sure is what he thinks. I love that panel where he thinks how he could fulfill each and every single order of Erwin but not his last one. Ahhh beautiful pain.

There are many paralels of Eruri with the other ackermans and I love it, because it shows how ‘canon’ they are. Mikasa and Eren, being the romantic ackerbond, to say something, and Uri and Kenny, the master/servant part of the ackerbond….I love how ‘romantic’ the nature of the ackerbond is, not the romantic lovey dobey, but romantic in the ‘this is the ideal of how things work, if tragic as well’. It’s tragic because even tho there is trust and commitment between the parts involved in the bond, there’s something their counterparts can’t grasp, Kenny still couldn’t understand Uri, Mikasa wanting to protect Eren at all costs, even bothering him with her behavior, and Erwin not telling Levi his true motivation for ‘saving humanity’. It’s tragic, it’s romantic.

As for aspects of the characters, in their appeareance, I love that Erwin got his arm bit off, I love how Levi almost dies, lost an eye and his right hand fingers and also got his leg chewed...such a powerful character being turn to pulp makes my kokoro go doki, makes me feel the same as when Leon (RE4) gets tortured (There’s something special when you want to see your faves suffer….)

I love that the characters changed, I still hope Levi dies, because something I have come to hate so much in storytelling, let it be movies, series, cartoons or anime, that the protagonists, most of the time if not always, have to be intact, they have to win. Most of this is of course influenced to appeal to the masses and to sell. SELL. And Levi is a character that sells. I’m waiting for the final result on his character, if the author chooses his narrative or what sells better. IDK what will happen, everything dictates that Levi has to die, but who knows!! I just hope that he thinks of Erwin, dead or not. 

Okay I have rambled a lot tonight, I might continue this in a more logical way some day...